July 6th, 2015 ----- 3:58 am
So I have been thinking about writing in a journal once again, but I hate hand-writing things and then there is of course the who will read my shit issue. So I decided it was time to go online and do one. So here I am once again!
So I am up late again, pulling an all nighter - seems my pattern lately is be awake for 36 hours, sleep for 36 hours. Seriously! I think my mom is right and I need some kind of meds to stable me out but I have no desire to go in and get them. To much shit, too many hoops, ect. So instead this is my life for now.
I have been selling Avon something I enjoy doing but my business, if that is what you want to call it, is really suffering. I keep spending what little bit of income we get to pay my Avon bill with the idea I will sell the stuff and make my money back but so far things have not been going my way. The weather for one seems to fuck with me. For example today I wanted to go out and toss books in hope of picking up a customer or order that way; but guess what .... its going to rain all day. What the hell happened to April Showers its July not April!
My upline and DSM all say I need to create a weekly schedule and work work work the business but with no money and no drivers licence, that just does not seem possible.
To add to the depression that is my life I am out of lemon! I love my damn lemon and it makes everything I drink, drinkable to me. Might have to scrap some change together and drive up to state-line store and see if I can get a cheap hand grenade bottle of lemon to at least get me though today.
Keeping this one short for now because my head and finger is starting to throb!
Heather Out!
